Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye when you cant actually say goodbye. Letting go and moving on are things I have yet to learn. I miss my dad everyday, and dont know how to make "life after dad" work for me. I feel as though I am stuck in the past, to be more specific I feel I am stuck on the day my dad passed away. My heartbreaks like it was today, my tears run like I just found out. How do I say goodbye when heres no here to hear me and say goodbye back. Would like to wake up tomorrow and put the past in the past and learn to live a new day, but the pain wont dull. People say it will get better in time or that its already been two months so I should move on. But how long is "in time" and how do I move on? Oh how I miss my dad. I could have never guessed I would be this effected by the death of a loved one. I am turning to the one person I know has the answers and the one person who has the power to ease my pain and thats God. I bought a book and a new bible I am going to start reading. I pray to God to please stop the pain. Some how let me say goodbye to my dad.